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[awakenerd]

Who: anyone
When: day 57, afternoon
Where: anywhere it's a mingle

[This is a mingle but there is a comment in a Chain Chat to the whole train!]

Rean: A while ago some of us were discussing a festival where every team puts on a production, game, booth, whatever, maybe based around team bonds or interests.

What do people think? Maybe it's a good time to to talk about it again?

[Feel free to discuss with each other! Or just mingle as usual.]

Comments

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

[ His feelings are a mess! He's confused, upset, alarmed, and very very distressed. Sometimes you remember being a brainwashed amnesiac without any context whatsoever and it throws you off really badly. Crow has actually done a pretty damned good job of schooling his expression so none of it's showing on his face but well, Rean Knows and he's not bothering to block any of it. He knows that would just worry Rean more. ]

No kidding. I feel like I just jumped into the middle of the fourth book in a series and I've only just read the first one.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

[Gently bumping shoulders.]

I'm sure books two and three will show up eventually.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

[ Crow bumps Rean's shoulder in return. Actually, he has this absurd urge to bury his face in Rean's shoulder and scream but even if he were likely to give into that urge (spoilers: he's not), he definitely wouldn't be doing it in public so this will have to do. ]

I'm sure it will. I'm getting all the pieces out of order but at least it's an idea of where the story's going. So that's a start.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

Maybe a walk will help you think about it.

[And somewhere more private Crow can scream if he needs to.]

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

A walk might not be a bad idea.

[ Crow stands up and stretches before he puts his Chain away. ]

Wanna join me?

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

I'd love to.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

Sounds good to me, then.

[ Crow's going to head out the lounge, though he has no clear direction he wants to go other than away. If Rean ends up steering them, it'd be pretty easy for him to follow otherwise Crow will probably end up wandering aimlessly outside the train. ]

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

[He lets Crow lead, just keeping in step quietly. A calm, solid presence at Crow's side. And he is calm, for whatever that's worth.]

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

[ The calm helps more than anything else, a steady anchor in the swirling tempest of his own mind. Rean can feel Crow mentally leaning on it, not able to calm down so easily himself but taking comfort in it. ]

...Thanks. For being here for me.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

That's one thing you don't need to thank me for. But you're welcome.

Do you want to talk? Or just think?

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

I may not need to but I definitely want to.

[ So just accept the gratitude, Rean! ]

I'm... not sure where to start.

[ Which doesn't mean he doesn't want to talk so much as, well, exactly what it says on the tin. ]

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

[He won't argue with it.]

Maybe with how you feel?

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

[ How does he feel? He knows it's a lot all at once but putting words to it is something else entirely. He takes his time to consider before answering. ]

...Confused... and definitely not happy about it.

[ That's the tip of the iceberg but it's a start. ]

That memory... I didn't feel like "Crow" at all. Everything that makes me... me... it felt like it was gone. Or maybe buried so deep down I couldn't touch it.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

.... That's not... Great. Even with amnesia you're pretty "you".

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

Yeah, that's the thing. I've got a lot of questions about my past but I've never doubted who I am. But that... I didn't recognize anyone, I didn't even care. Nothing even mattered to me past what I was there for.

[ It was really freaky. Unsettling. ]

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

There are... Ways to suppress a personality. But the stronger the personality the more unreliable the method.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

And I'd imagine anyone trying to use those methods would know it, too. So to use it anyway... There had to be a reason.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

Yeah. Well. You being a a pilot might have factored. I can say with confidence Awakener and Knight bonds don't exactly grow on trees.

Or maybe they wanted you for something else. But using you as an observer seems odd.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

Right... if someone wanted to use me, it'd have to be either for my status as an Awakener or to fight something. I can't imagine anything else, not if they're going to strip away everything else about me.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

I'm sure you'll remember more but... I'm not sure how much you'll like it.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

[ Crow shakes his head slightly. ]

Doesn't matter if I like it or not. Obviously I want to know what happened, but... it's already done and I haven't lost sight of that. I can't change the past, only what I do with that information moving forward.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

Yeah. What do you want to do with it?

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

I haven't figured that part out yet. But I figure I've still got time to work it out.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[awakenerd]

Yeah, you've definitely got time.

Re: Spoilers for Chapter 2 of Trails of Cold Steel 3

[bad_crowmance]

Yeah.

[ Crow takes in a deep breath, lets it out slowly. ]

You know... talking about it was more helpful than I thought it'd be.