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The Twenty-Third Trial

Who: trialgoers etc!
When: Day 50, morning
Where: the ~trial zone~

[Another morning, another Trial! Ugh.

At least this one seems normal, starting out with a shake and the Hermit’s booming voice:]

"Good morning, Heroes. You can guess why you're being called, but before we begin I have an official statement. The Prince of Stars and associates were not responsible for yesterday's Trial. It appears the system was copied by a Malicious entity -- we apologize for any confusion and are doing our best to locate this entity and find a way to prevent any such incidents in the future.

In the meantime, we've scheduled a low-stress Trial for today to lift your spirits. With teamwork and a little silliness, let's search for unity and peace within ourselves."

[The Hermit's tent is in the clearing, awaiting your arrival.]

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I was not trying to kill you. I needed to make you leave.

I cannot always control the demon's anger.

[She looks back at all the ice.]

[Looks at him and raises an eyebrow.]

I wasn't.

Then it's all the more impressive you can pull back.

It's easy for horror to stop a murder attempt, just hurting is a little easier to get lost in.

[Is it true? She's not sure, but she can make it sound right.]

As I said, I do not have as much control as I would like.

Which means it should even be more likely for you to have lost it and then didn't.

Who told you demons didn't have control?

It is not something I was told. It is something I can feel. You know when you are not truly yourself. When you give into other emotions too strongly.

....I mean, that could also just being angry.

I mean, only reason I got here is because I refuse to give up and that was more emotional than anything.

You are certainly stubborn.

Yes, and so are a lot of people here.

People who think they're worthless. Who think they're monsters. Who think they can't be trusted. Who decide they're so terrible that changing doesn't matter, so they don't even try.

The way you talk about yourself, sounds an awful lot like that.

There is no way to change what I am. I can't even be unless I take it. And that can only ever happen when his emotional hold is too tenuous to manage the both of us. I do not know what you hope to accomplish in this, but it is impossible. We what we are.

Take it?

Take some sense of identity. Stolen moments like this. It's all I can hope for. All I am.

Yep, that is definitely some severe self esteem issues.

And like, it doesn't have to be?

There's spells for golem bodies. There's working on a share mindspace. There is a lot of options to pursue?

Golem bodies? And I told you before, I don't know how to reach him. Not his conscience anyway.

Again. I know a multitude of mind spells and whatever this stuff I'm doing right now is. Options.

Yeah. Make an artificial body, stick a soul inside it. Hayseed, that's how Timber Wolves came into existence, and they're still breeding today.

And what makes you think we're so easy to separate? I don't even understand why we're like this. A deeper magic must be involved.

I know just saying 'it's hopeless, why bother' will mean there will literally never be a solution.

So the only option IS to actually look for one.

... fine. But it can only be done right now. I have no control otherwise.

You really think Felix, the extremely optimistic, supportive, helpful guy, would actually deny helping you or something?

... why would he help the worst part of himself?

...why does he want to help other people?

I have no idea. I do not have such insight. I assume it is just who he is.

I don't get it either. How he can be so continually supportive and upbeat and optimistic about people. Even when they aren't of themselves.

But he is. And he does it consistently. And there are people on this train who've done bad things.

But he seems to trust everyone.

And you're a person whose not himself.

And I can confirm it for him.

He would want to help you because it's what he does.

Why do you want to help me? Did you not assume I was trying to kill you?

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