auroraexpress | The Twenty Second Trial

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The Twenty Second Trial

Who: You
When: Day 49, Morning
Where:

The entrance today is a huge, ornate stone archway. A gossamer veil glittering like starlight upon water hangs inside it, fluttering as if caught in a gentle breeze. It's impossible to say what might lie beyond; even if you walk around the other side — and it's perfectly possible to do so — you just see the same thing.

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[TOO BAD. Kneeling to get a look at him.]

Oh... Randy.

[Softly, upset and caring as he examines the damage.]

[would like to hide! cannot hide!! cannot even hide his feelings and he knows it, and there's a primal goddamned terror. he is still hallucinating.

throwing a forearm over his face.]

I fucked up.

...

[Putting a hand on him, somewhere not mangled.]

What happened?

[stills. heyyy a surge of self-loathing!]

...

I killed everyone.

... [oh no. Compassion and heartache and leaning down to put his forehead to Randy's.]

Why?

[a huff of laughter that really feels like it should be tears.]

Shitty aim. Sousei lost control and I... stabbed 80H instead. I wasn't even supposed to do more than knock him out, but that knife...

...I get the picture.

You're going to beat yourself up over it even though it sounds like you didn't really have a choice or control of anything. Also, for all I can tell you might be the most hurt, I don't know. Can you sit up?

I stabbed the wrong fucking person, Rean...

[but he's sitting up as best he can, wincing]

Yes. And you feel like shit about it.

[Helping him, carefully.]

You aren't a bad guy Randy. Okay? Look at me.

[UNCONVINCED. but. making eye contact.]

[Cupping his face.]

We'll talk it out when you're not all bloody and hurt. But nothing is going to convince me you aren't a good person, no matter how bad circumstances get.

[when your hallucinations are halfway about how you're terrible and don't deserve anyone around you and will only hurt them and then you tpk your own room, it's hard to listen to this kind of thing. but it's also... always so hard to argue with rean. he really just wants... to crumple again. lay down and go back to being dead. but he'll agreeably nod for rean, even though rean can feel that he doesn't actually accept it.

Sorry for the trouble.

[Using the contact to channel mana into Randy, to at least stop bloodloss and keep his vitals stable until real healing can be applied.

Also keeping hold of Randy's face.]

Randy.