auroraexpress | (no subject)

No, I mean do you remember every detail?

Edited 2019-08-02 05:42 (UTC)

Yyyyyyyyes?

Like, every detail? The number of trees, how many tiles on the floor, that kind of detail?

Why....wouldn't I?

I mean, older memories are fuzzy, but General Doyle feels a lot more recent. A lot of familiar aches.

[What happens when an AI based on memory blows up in your head?]

[Hell of a good memory, but also a hell of an ability to check out on the world too.]

[Yeah he's figuring that out.]

That was actually my next question, if the memories before the AI thing were the same.

Most people don't have that kind of eidetic memory. It doesn't sound like it's natural for you either.

Edited 2019-08-02 05:53 (UTC)

....they don't? It's....been that way since I got here?

A photographic memory is pretty rare, actually.

....maybe that's why I have a headache.

[Absolutely is, he's been trying to process those details in the present too much.]

Sounds like a possibility. If it was something from that AI you're missing and not a natural ability, it's probably a lot of... high attention you're not quite equipped for.

....I was more....focused? With Doyle.

But I was also concussed.

[So head still hurt because his life is suffering.]

So you're going to be trying to recall things in total detail from memories huh? There's got to be a way around that.

It looks like. I mean, I don't always zone out. Just. When I'm focused on it.

Does it affect your headache at all?

No? Nothing I've noticed. But I am really zoned out.

I wonder if meditation would help at all.

....couldn't hurt. Right?

Fortunately I've never heard of meditation hurting anyone.

We'll give that a shot then.

After I've caught up on a little sleep.

....though, I guess now we know why I got all gung ho about the bonding thing. [Threat of extinction makes for being dedicated to just. Not.]

Yeah. You're real dedicated to saving people.

It's not like we had much choice.

The Covenant had a lot better weapons than us, especially if they don't even need to go planet side if they don't want anything from it. And I didn't feel any doubt.

They just wanted us dead. For some reason, I didn't think for a second there was another way with them.

The only way to make it was to make sure as many people could survive as possible.

[What a grim reality.]

Well, you're definitely a survivor.

[It really is.]

It really seems like that. I think the Colonel was looking for that. To see whether I could deal with the situation or if I'd crack in that sort of scenario.

I don't think that was the first time I was close to a Glassing. [Which sounds. Like a goddamn nightmare, Jesus Christ.] No wonder I agreed to be a human experiment.

Desperate times... At least you have more context for why you look like you've been through a few neat grinders.

Yeah. Had a war we couldn't afford to lose against an alien alliance that had us outgunned. If you could be the crazy fucker to survive near death, then by god, I was gonna keep doing it.

Hopefully this conflict you've been roped into is a little more relaxing over all.