Train Meeting

[awakenerd]

Who: You
When: Day 23 morning
Where: The Lounge

[So you've all been invited via Chain to an "Informal Train-wide Meeting". Rean has a few things to say and then the rest of the post can be discussing things among each other really.]

Comments

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

[A gloomy look passes over her face.]

You are not wrong. As more of us disappear, our ability to connect to each other seems to diminish further still, causing more disappearances. We try to avoid thinking about it, but...

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

Yeah. I think it's natural to want to keep a distance if you're afraid of being left behind.

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

I must admit that I am rather the introverted sort to begin with- and I had something of a falling out with a team member over a stressful incident that occurred about a week past- but then she disappeared to, and- I would like to do something. It is unbearable seeing everybody vanish one by one, and I don't want everybody to disappear, and there are still things that I must do myself. I just fear that I am not exactly, er, well suited to this mission. I am reluctant to "bond" so easily.

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

Hm. It's not like anyone can really force bonding with others. And it comes with the risk of getting hurt, so it can be pretty scary if you're the sensitive sort.

Even still, I think if you're open to it, genuinely trying, people are going to respond to that positively, no matter how awkward the attempts.

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

[She's so bad at this and has so many trust issues and being attached to people is scary but she doesn't want to die.]

I have already been making some effort. So I shall continue to do so.

Ah, you're a very upbeat person, aren't you?

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

Haha, I try. And you're trying and that's a lot. So take it at your own pace okay? We're in this together.

What's your name?

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

[Oh no what the fuck

she's weak against this kind of stuff, and blushing really hard.]

Oh, u-um, okay.

I'm Hlasoh.

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

[He's a little oblivious.]

Nice to meet you Hlasoh.

[Offering his hand!]

I already said but, I'm Rean Schwarzer. Is there anything you can think of that would help you feel more comfortable?

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

[All these friendship feelings are unfair!

She shakes his hand, though.]

Hmm, I do not know. Tell me something of yourself, perhaps?

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

Sure. Though I don't remember too much. I'm a Divine Knight, so officially I'm not exactly alive. Though obviously I'm not what you'd call dead either.

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

A Divine Knight? Like, some sort of spirit?

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

Exactly. In my world I'm usually asleep, but there are times in history someone will awaken me for my powers.

Right now, I don't remember much more than that, but as I regain my strength I should remember more of my past.

Hm, I do recall basic things. Like I'm pretty sure I like fishing and playing card games. How about you?

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

That is interesting. Then you are not quite like the other amnesiacs here, if you remember what you are. That is truly quite fascinating. Do you serve a particular God?

I enjoy playing the flute, reading novels, and going to the theater.

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

A particular god...? There's really only the sky Goddess Aidios in Zemuria, but I don't serve her directly.

Those are some good interests. I'd be interested to hear you play the flute some time, if you're willing.

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

Why would there only be one? That doesn't make much sense to me.

Y-You're not the first person that has said that. I'm something of an amateur, in truth. It is only a hobby.

Re: Some things

[awakenerd]

It's hard to imagine more gods, for me.

Hm, as for music... I think what matters more is the feelings you're playing with. As long as you're enjoying playing, I know I'll enjoy listening.

[That should be a really trite line but he says it with utter sincerity.]

Re: Some things

[nihilmancy]

Isn't she..... busy?

[GOD YOU'RE SO


YOU'RE SO...]

M-Maybe sometime, then...

[desirestruth]

Hlasoh...

[Do you need therapy/hugs jackal?

Because she brought Estelle with her.]

[nihilmancy]

Sorry, I just... I don't know if we can make it, in the long run. Even in the short run. And since being honest is the thing now, t-that scares me.

[Glancing at the jackal though!!!]

[desirestruth]

I know. I'm scared, too.

[HANDING SMOL YAPPER TO HLASOH here hug this no one will judge anyone for hugging a soft animal.]

[nihilmancy]

[Petting! It is good and soft.]

[desirestruth]

I don't know if it helps, but...I guess in the end, the best I can offer is that if we keep fighting, and keep trying, then even if the end comes, I'll never have to wonder if it'd been different if I hadn't given up.

Maybe it's an odd way to keep hope going, but I don't know that any bright-hearted speeches would go over that well.

[nihilmancy]

There are things that I need to accomplish before I die. If I am consumed, along with my world, where will my soul find itself? Heh, I won't even be able to haunt my enemies, but I can't find them.

So even talk of "fighting" until the end, isn't good enough for me.

[desirestruth]

Of course not. But if I told you we'd surely win, you'd never believe me--and with good reason, since I can't really guarantee it, can I?

All I can tell you is this. The only antidote to hopeless odds is to find reasons to keep going anyway.

[nihilmancy]

You're right about that much. I probably would have gotten more pessimistic.

...Yes. I think I know what you mean.