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[ If the morning's trial hadn't been miserable enough … ]

[ Now it's raining! And it's still so foggy you can barely see your own feet. ]

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In life and death situations or people are hurting, trust me when I say I'm fine with something.

If I show discomfort, but I say I can still help someone, trust I'm okay enough to help them. I can deal with discomfort literally anytime. The thought someone I care about is hurting and I can't help them because they're more concerned about an emotion I don't need to deal with right then....I hate it. I hate it a lot. Failing someone I care about is literally the worst thing I can feel and failing it because of something that doesn't need to be in the way about myself.... [Shakes his head.]

If we're in a life or death situation and I agree to a choice I'm obviously not happy about, trust I'm choosing it because I recognize it should be chosen.

If I really don't want to do something, or think something is wrong, I'm not afraid to fight someone on it. But if I'm choosing something I don't want to do, it's usually because I understand why it needs to be done.

Okay, but ... If you decide you're gonna do something because you think it's the only way, and I disagree, I'm gonna to tell you. When it's "do right now or people die" it might be different. Sometimes you've just gotta go, even if it's scary or dangerous and you don't want to. I get that. I get that you can choose for yourself and trust you to know yourself better than I know you.

And. It's not about poking and prodding to ... make you a better person? That's not my job. I need to look after myself too and sometimes that means telling your friends to back off.

Edited 2019-12-16 13:25 (UTC)

If we're talking options, that's different. I just mean....my emotions shouldn't be the deciding factor of whether or not to do something. I want to find the best option over all, and if the best overall means I'm not doing something I emotionally want, then those shouldn't be why it isn't done. If there are others reasons to not do something, then that's different. But when it's 'Dusk might be sad even though he says it's fine,' then I don't want to do that. If it's 'Dusk might be sad and also I think this option would get us what we want without doing that,' then yeah, say something. See what I mean?

Poking and prodding is probably more about being worried for me and my mental health, because I'm not sure why else you'd be concerned about momentary, confused possible discomfort when you're literally in pain.

[ Hm. Hmmm. Hm ... ]

Well. I don't like it. But if that's what you need, we can try.

[ THE SPIRIT OF COMPROMISE ]

'Cuz you looked uncomfy and I didn't need help that bad. If I'd done it anyways I'd have felt worse. So I didn't.

Injuries can relapse or suddenly get worse again without proper treatment. Discomfort really isn't more important than that.

Having a possible panic attack, that needs a little more patience because those can mess you up good.

But even then, I was more confused and caught off guard. I didn't know what I was feeling enough to be uncomfortable.

Dusk. I wasn't that bad. If I was I would say.

[ With a sigh, she settles down into a loaf ]

So ... we both made assumptions and both should have talked more. Now we know better.

And my discomfort wasn't even really discomfort. [Shrugs.]

....yeah. I'll try to remember about asking.

And the claustrophobia. Probably better to know that now.

Claustro..

[ Wrinkles her snout. ]

The pods?

Yeah. Fear of small, enclosed spaces.

It's a pretty common phobia.

[ Makes a low, grumbly noise like an irritated cat, her tail giving a single sharp flick. ]

Annoying. Don't know why I don't like it so much.

Could be a number of things. Could be trauma, could be instinct, could just be it's uncomfortable. But you do have big wings, I can't imagine that makes small confined spaces at all comfortable.

[ Gives aforementioned wings a bit of a ruffle, half unfolding and then refolding them. ]

[ And she ... sticks her tongue out like, BLEGH ]

Ah well. I'll find out with memories.

True. Just gotta rack up the sparks.

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