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[nihilmancy]

Who: Heroes, possibly suffering
When: Day 16, Late Morning through Afternoon
Where: Aurora

[Well, that just happened! Many people on the train are now doubtlessly the worse for wear, physically and psychologically. How are you sorting all of that out?

Alternately, maybe you have enough Sparks for a memory and you're playing it on the big screen? Or you're testing out a new power?

Or maybe you have something else in mind? Mingle away!]

Comments

Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

[Eclair's learned some things about himself, and that just means he extra wants to regain memories. So he's sitting in the lounge, turning in several tokens. The memories play on the screen in sequence:

In the first, he's fishing with his father.

In the second, he shares a romantic moment with a cute girl.

The third, though, is the tail end of a painful argument with Ciabatta. While Eclair looked relatively happy for the first two, by the time that memory's done he's got tears rolling down his face.

When it stops he shakes his head to clear it, rubbing at his face with the heels of his palms.]

What the hell...?

[desirestruth]

[MAN HOW MANY PEOPLE AM I GONNA HAVE TO BUY BOOZE FOR which is to say have this bottle of wine she's just. Holding out to you.

She doesn't think you'd want a spontaneous hug???]

[howlsitgoin]

--Huh?

[Oh it's. Someone with alcohol? He takes the bottle, a little weakly.]

Thanks?

[desirestruth]

...You need it more than I do, anyway.

[It's okay she just doesn't have any butterscotch candy.

yet.]

[howlsitgoin]

I'm not much of a drinker... I think.

[He doesn't remember. But also he's sad and it does sound like a good idea...]

[desirestruth]

It's not a good idea to cope this way all the time, but...

[She kind of shrugs, a little.]

You don't seem like you want hugs from strangers, and I'm out of other ideas.

[howlsitgoin]

Hmmm... I'll be fine. I have a plan.

[A plan!! Which is helping him calm down.]

[desirestruth]

Does this plan involve punching anyone on my team.

[JUST. JUST A HUNCH SHE HAS.]

[howlsitgoin]

Not punching. He would deserve it, though.

[desirestruth]

I'm not here to argue that.

[She sighs a little bit.] I'm obligated to ask you please don't do long-term physical or psychological damage to him. But I couldn't say you're not justified...and I won't intervene.

[In other words, fuck him up, fam.]

[howlsitgoin]

I'm not gonna hurt him...

[He's going to do THE OPPOSITE.]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[cawnflict]

[ he's kind of just. watched from behind. silently, through all three of them. after the third one ends, he waits a few seconds and then steps up next to him. ]

You look like you just got stood up on a date.

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

Shut up!

[you big dumb bird!!

but actually looking at CB just makes Eclair cry harder so]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[cawnflict]

[ this baby.

his big baby. ]

Some things never change. You're still as soft as ever.

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

You-- Rrrgh!

[Eclair just growls, quite wolf-like. He's got way too many feelings, but chief among them is "I should've chased him". It hurts. There's so many more he wanted to say. He doesn't remember why he was afraid to say it, or what he was so angry, but... it's a lot. Having already heard that they made up isn't enough to make Eclair feel any more secure or less lonely, so...

...So he's reaching up to grab Ciabatta's collar just like in that memory, to yank him down onto the couch with him. Because the best way for Eclair to deal with his feelings is obviously by kissing Ciabatta really hard!]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[cawnflict]

[ Oh.






Needless to say, he didn't expect it, and is halfway stumbled onto him. After a long moment of no movements, he's opening his mouth the tiniest bit and kissing him lightly in return. He's talking but it's a whisper. ]

...what kind of reaction is that?

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

I wanted to.

[Back then, right now, he just wanted to. He also wants to hug Ciabatta so he's going to, half pulling him into his lap to do it.]

...I didn't want you to go.

Re: Memory Broadcast

[cawnflict]

[ ugh. emotions.

There's a moment, then his hand is lightly stroking the back of Eclair's neck. ]

It wasn't your fault.

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

[Don't mind him just burying his face in Ciabatta's shoulder to cry on him. Right now that old wound feels fresh, so he's holding on tight, like Ciabatta might disappear on him if he doesn't.]

We made up, right?

[Please remind him because at the time it felt like they never would.]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[cawnflict]

I lie about a lot. [ just, fyi. ] But I didn't lie about that.

Re: Memory Broadcast

[nihilmancy]

[Hlasoh is in the Lounge, looking quite exhausted, but much much calmer than before. But still pretty worn down. Still, she notices the memories playing on the screen, and Eclair's tears, and recognizes who it is. He saw her break down, didn't he? Well this is awkward. And now she has seen awkward moments from him. And his own emotional vulnerability. Well, this is weird.]

...Holding up alright?

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

I'm... fine.

[He's upset!! But he knows logically that it was a long time ago and that things are presumably going to be okay between them. It still sucks! It still hurts.]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[nihilmancy]

Right... I'm fine too.

[She doesn't look very fine. But she's fine, really. She gives him a brief, sympathetic glance, then looks away.]

Re: Memory Broadcast

[howlsitgoin]

[taking some deep breaths...!]

...It's just an old memory. You upset about yesterday?

Re: Memory Broadcast

[nihilmancy]

[Extremely!]

...I'll be alright.