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[hot_mess_express]

Who: anyone
When: day 29 all day
Where: wherever!

[Mingle, look at memories, run amok, whatever.

Or, you know, there's morning glories blooming all around the train today. Mostly white but with a few brilliant crimson flowers (do morning glories come in that color?), all of them smell sweet and lovely, though the red ones smell a bit like... cinnamon? They're also blooming all day, which is weird.

The scent wafts pleasantly through the train through the morning. The sweet scent brings the urge to be honest and express your emotions freely. The more spiced scent... might make you randy? No not the tall redhead. The other kind.

In either case neither effect is generally overwhelming, and can in most cases be overcome, if you happen to notice you're under any influence in the first place. The effects are subtle enough.

In the afternoon a light rain will crush the flowers, making the scents heavier, and the effects stronger for a few hours, before it all clears up in the evening.]

Comments

[awakenerd]

[Rean will be there! Hanging out with plants. He's had time to think but he hasn't really sounded his thoughts out to anyone, like he'd normally want to.]

[crimeson]

[Randy ambles right on up without pretense.]

Hey.

[awakenerd]

[He already knew the moment Randy was close but he looks up with a smile at the greeting.]

Hey. How're you doing?

[crimeson]

Pretty good, pretty good.

[you know, his default reaction without taking actual circumstances into account. settling by Rean, though.]

[awakenerd]

[Yes come sit.]

Yeah? Because yesterday was kind of a mess.

[Which is entirely Rean's fault and he has to fix it somehow.]

[crimeson]

[MAYBE IT'S ALSO RANDY'S FAULT!!! HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THAT!!!

c-called out.]

...Well. Yeah.

[awakenerd]

[He has not considered that in the slightest. Everything Rufus said was correct and also deserved, thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Mostly what bothers him is hurting Randy's feelings and also Rufus's though.]

I'm kind of an idiot. So I should probably start by apoligizing for that. It wasn't at all my intention to hurt you, but i did. And while you went out of your way to help me too.

Rufus wasn't wrong to yell at me. I'm glad he was looking out for you, because i totally messed up on that.

[crimeson]

[Randy puts his face in his hands and groans.]

Look. A lot of it is on me for not remembering exactly how you are about this kind of stuff in context? So much could have been avoided if I'd just thought to myself "oh right use straightforward words with Rean and don't assume implications mean jack shit"?

[awakenerd]

[Whines a little at being called an idiot basically but he can't argue it!! He is one!!]

I didn't mean to imply things! I'm really sorry. You shouldn't have to adjust your expectations to me being oblivious, I should be able to pick up on things better.

[Should. But his mind just doesn't really work in that direction and never has.]

Rufus was direct too. This time it really is entirely on me for causing you pain, and by extension him as well.

[crimeson]

[reaches over and paffs his shoulder gently.]

It's just. We talked around the concept of dating, obviously, an' then you said you were surprised you needed to respond at all, and just. Left it? There?

Maybe if I hadn't been so surprised by the whole thing I would've realized, but instead I got bummed out without actually thinking about it.

[awakenerd]

[Groans and rubs a hand over his face.]

I wasn't thinking how it sounded. I wasn't thinking at all. Sorry.

[crimeson]

It's okay. Sorry it became such a mess.

[awakenerd]

That's my fault.

But we should talk about it. What do you want out of all this, ideally?

[crimeson]

It's not like I'm not... perfectly happy just helping you out? Like I said when you asked, I'm sure. I want to.

[randy that's not subtle evading the whole goddamn question.]

[awakenerd]

That's not what I asked, though.

[crimeson]

...I'm in love with you. An' it's probably kind of pathetic, but I'll take whatever you're willing to give.

1/2

[awakenerd]

[Way to make a guy blush.]

I don't think that's.... It's not pathetic to want to be with someone you love.

[awakenerd]

But Randy... I'm not really the guy you remember. I don't even remember you yet. And even when I do, I'm not... human any more. There's a lot about me that might not be the person you're thinking of.

And even if none of that turns out to be an issue for you, what about Rufus? He basically demanded I date you if we contract, but that's not because he wants me in the equation. It's because he wants you to be happy, which I agree with him on, but I don't think you'll be happy if he's unhappy either.

So I want to know, even if you think it's impossible, what does your ideal situation look like?

1/2

[crimeson]

It's not like I haven't considered the ways you're different, y'know.

He... it's not like he doesn't know, that I love you. We already talked about it. It won't make him happy, but I think I've managed to get through to him that I don't love him less just because you're here. We were straightforward from the start, too, that I'm not really able to do "exclusive".

[crimeson]

...I want both. I know it's a lot to ask, but... Ideally, you'd date me too. I just- want to be together with the people I want to be together with?

[awakenerd]

[Oh no. What a charming man.]

I don't think it's wrong to want everything. It being possible is another matter...

[He's really worried about Rufus but.]

To be clear, would you want me to be exclusively dating you?

[crimeson]

Well that would be fuckin' unfair of me, wouldn't it?

[awakenerd]

I just don't want any more misunderstandings this week!

[crimeson]

Fair enough. No. I wouldn't ask that of you. 'Specially not with Crow here.

1/2

[awakenerd]

[That again?]

What do you mean?