[He's going to start crying, putting a hand over is face. He feels so wildly. It's not that it's things he doesn't feel, but it's as if... He can't contain them like he normally can. Like his desire to kiss Randy--he would never just go grab someone like that, and then there's the tears. He wouldn't show so much weakness to someone he's barely, albeit pleasantly, acquainted with.
He shouldn't feel so... Devastatingly rejected either. Maybe when he's himself it won't wrench through him so badly. That he's seen as too cold to want anyone, or....
He's probably still messed up from dying that's all. He's not acting himself at all. Mistaking him for a monster is reasonable enough.]
I'm going back. You should forget this, there's clearly something amiss with me still.
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[He's going to start crying, putting a hand over is face. He feels so wildly. It's not that it's things he doesn't feel, but it's as if... He can't contain them like he normally can. Like his desire to kiss Randy--he would never just go grab someone like that, and then there's the tears. He wouldn't show so much weakness to someone he's barely, albeit pleasantly, acquainted with.
He shouldn't feel so... Devastatingly rejected either. Maybe when he's himself it won't wrench through him so badly. That he's seen as too cold to want anyone, or....
He's probably still messed up from dying that's all. He's not acting himself at all. Mistaking him for a monster is reasonable enough.]
I'm going back. You should forget this, there's clearly something amiss with me still.