A little, but it isn't as though I haven't earned it.
[ she says it like it's a joke, half-laughing and almost casual despite the fact that she's literally crushing him to death. though that weight does ease up, just a fraction— not enough to let him move, or even do much to catch his breath, but enough that nothing else is going to break quite yet. maybe it's a little cliched, but letting him have an explanation feels fair. ]
But— you know, I haven't really changed at all. I just... mm. Would you believe me if I said I wanted to do this the first time I looked at you? All that blood on your hands... but I was too busy trying to figure out what was going on to do the right thing about it. And then I thought it would be bad to cause that kind of trouble.
But now... I'm just too tired to keep talking myself out of it. That's all. So— if that's really how you feel, my apologies for taking so long.
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A little, but it isn't as though I haven't earned it.
[ she says it like it's a joke, half-laughing and almost casual despite the fact that she's literally crushing him to death. though that weight does ease up, just a fraction— not enough to let him move, or even do much to catch his breath, but enough that nothing else is going to break quite yet. maybe it's a little cliched, but letting him have an explanation feels fair. ]
But— you know, I haven't really changed at all. I just... mm. Would you believe me if I said I wanted to do this the first time I looked at you? All that blood on your hands... but I was too busy trying to figure out what was going on to do the right thing about it. And then I thought it would be bad to cause that kind of trouble.
But now... I'm just too tired to keep talking myself out of it. That's all. So— if that's really how you feel, my apologies for taking so long.