It is a part of you now, yes, but my point is it was not always the case. In fact, I do not know when you got it or when you could have...but you need to understand what you are before you end up becoming a liability to others.

[like herself ok, she is not having the dead don't move shit.

if it were any other arbiter or rather any one of them she disliked, well, she wouldn't run them through, she considers the bigger picture, but it would have been a greater temptation. Aurelia--not Styx--has not really done anything, though? in fact, her whole business is kind of weird. whatever.]